Jimmy & Rach ~ Valentine's Day 2007

Jimmy & Rach ~ Valentine's Day 2007

Were we young, or what?

Were we young, or what?

Joshua & Meghann

Joshua & Meghann
I've got some good looking kids!

21 January, 2009

This morning my prayer time was such a blessing. I got some much needed rest last night and I awoke when Jimmy got up. I spent a good 2 hours in study and prayer and I felt the Lord so close to me. I just poured out my heart to Him, and He granted me such comfort and strength.

I'm still not feeling great, the nausea is still here, but I'm dealing with it. My muscles seem weaker. It's hard to do the things I want, but I'm battling through it anyway. He's carrying me! As long as I know my heart, mind, and spirit feels my Savior, I'll be okay. I pray that He'll continue filling me. I thank you sweet Jesus for loving me in such a special way.

Ms. Vickie sent me a sweet email, she's such a dear, strong friend and sister to me. Ms. Donya always sends me Scripture, and I really appreciate that. The Lord has blessed me with good friends. It's funny how just a few words can help strengthen a person.

I'm sorry I've been such a lousy writer lately! I think I've been wallowing. I'm trying to do better!

This morning I studied John 8: 12-30. I thank God that I believe! I thank Him for saving me. I know anything that is good is me is through Him and I pray I'll continue to honor and glorify Him alone in all things, even in the bad times. I pray I will be a light shining for Jesus.




20 January, 2009

Today, I am still feeling so nauseous from the medication. They've given me other medication to counteract it, and it does help, but not all the way. I'm so shaky and hiper feeling, yet I don't feel well. I didn't rest well last night and I got up early.

But I do feel close to my Lord, and in that I find strength and comfort. I know He'll see me through this. I'm praying the side effects will pass eventually. The doctor has been good about trying to help me. You know, sometimes you get one who just kind of gives up on you if the first thing doesn't work. I'm glad she's not like that.

I'm fairing along, but I sure wish I felt better.

19 January, 2009

It's unlike me to express my feelings as I have been doing on this blog. I consider myself to be a private person, but as I read some of the things I've written, I guess I'm not as much of private person as I'd really like to be. I guess I don't like knowing that I am showing anyone else, 'the real me'. I know that God knows me and I share intimate details with Him and it's drawn me so much closer to Him, but I'm not always comfortable showing myself to others. And yet, for some reason, here I am ... again ... trying to show myself.

I think deep down I have a desperate need to seem strong, but deep inside I feel very weak. I'd like to think that I don't need anybody, but deep inside, I know I do. I crave friendships, yet don't seem to know how to have one.

I'm hard on myself right now. I've had a bad day, a stressful day. A very hurtful day! A day in which by this moment of the night, hopelessness is rearing it's ugly head. I must rely upon the promises that I know my Father has given me. I must recite, aloud even, Scriptures that remind me of His great love for me. I must not rely on the spirit of fear that entangles my emotions and makes me forget the Word of Truth! And instead remember He gave me a spirit of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

I thank you Father that I just know You're there! I may not can physically see you, but I believe, oh how I believe! Even in the midst of my pain, You are especially there!

25th Wedding Anniversary!

25th Wedding Anniversary!